Billie Eilish - Getting Older

I'm gettin' older I think I'm agin' well
I wish someone had told me I'd be doin' this by myself
There's reasons that I'm thankful there's a lot I'm grateful for
But it's different when a stranger's always waitin' at your door
Which is ironic 'cause the strangers seem to want me more
Than anyone before (Anyone before)
Too bad they're usually deranged
Last week I realized I crave pity
When I re-tell a story I make everything sound worse
Can't shake the feeling that I'm just bad at healing
And maybe that's the reason every sentence sounds rehearsed
Which is ironic because when I wasn't honest
I was still bein' ignored (Lyin' for attention just to get neglection)
Now we're estranged

Things I once enjoyed
Just keep me employed now
Things I'm longing for
Someday I'll be bored of
It's so weird
That we care so much until we don't